"Pari - Meri dost"

Dil ko tanhai manjoor nahi hoti,

Dosti me judai kabool nahi hoti.

Zindagi ne kar diya tha juda hamko,

Kar diya yanha tanha mujhko,

Par mere pagalpan me kuchh to baat thi,

Suni mere dil ki aur bhej di ek khubsurat masoom pari,

Us rab ka sukariya jisne meri suni,

Bhej di mere sath ke liye chun kar ek pari,

Baate uski sahad se mithi,

Chehra uska chaand sa pyara,

Dil me pyar sagar jitna,

Aankho me rab basta uske,

Shukariya khuda ka is dosti ke liye,

Dosti hamari ab rab se pyari hai mere liye..!!

Ek din hamaari mulakat na hui,

Galti thi meri?? Jo baat na hui??

Rooth gai wo, aur pareshaan bhi hui,

Baat na ki thik se aur anjan ban gai.!!

Dil ka ek kona khali aur halka sa laga,

Aankho me aansoo aur mai tanha sa laga,

Do din wo roothi rahi par wo do din saal sa laga,

Kaise samjhanoo use uski kimat??

Dil me basi hai uski dosti ki dor ban kar ek murat.!!

 Par rab ko bhi meri tanhai kabool na thi,

Dosti hamari kache dor si hai, par isme koi jod nahi thi,

Milaya wapas us rab ne hi mujhe us pari se,

Aankho me uske bhi kuchh anjane gam the chhupe se,

Aankh bhar aayi jab samne wo aayi,

Kamjor pal meri zindagi ka tha, jab wo aansoo banker aankhon me utar aayi.!!

Vada kiya hai usne sath nibhane ka,

Akela mujhe ya tanha na chhod jane ka,

Purani baate bhula kar, dosti nibhane ka,

Andho ki tarh hai yakin uski baato ka,

Wo nibhayegi sath aur vada apna..!!

Mujhse koi galti na ho rehmat barsaye khuda mera,

Dosti me judai ya kamjor na banaye khuda mera,

Uski aankho me base sapno ko sakar banay khuda mera,

Baate to baaki hai par sabd nahi hai,

Milenge dubara kuchh hasin lamho aur yaado ke sath,

Shukariya us rab ka aur is pari ka jo hai ab mere sath..!!

Standing alonE

Life is so silly and like dirty picture,

but i’m also a desi boy not a simple human with fink structure,

Will fall and stand again for some new adventure,

I know i’m not perfect and i do mistakes with some unwanted lecture,

But at the same time i do apologize,

And my mum says that’s good sign,

They also do the mistakes and never apologize for that,

I too have feelings; i’m not a crap rat,

I don’t want your fake love and words,

But at least behave like a human being don’t curse,

Kill me once at all; don’t poke me again and again,

I can’t die each and every moment,

I beg for friendship and some relation,

So they think i’m nothing and kick me like assf**k,

May be i’m bad in social networking,

But still a shit heart beats for you people.

I don’t know why i’m begging,

When they don’t want to get in,

Off course scared to be alone,

But will make myself stronger and will stand again alone..!

Learned a lot in this small journey of my shit life,

Many people played and life as well

Now I’m stronger and standing harder,

Cause i’ve only one shot, one opportunity,

Have to play better and proof my existence,

Its getting hard but its my life,

Will live like i want and thanks to my family,

Standing behind like god,

Some people wants me to leave,

But its my life i’ll live not leave,

If u have problem kill yourself or leave.,

God is asking me to hold his hand,

Got a good stand now i’m not alone.,

When i can see the god,

Then why should i see the temple,

And beg for your company..!!

Believe me now i’m stronger and happy with my life,

Because i’ve learned to accept things like they are in life,

Now i’m not alone so will struggle and survive J

Life S***'s

Whatever happens, i make myself stronger,

to stand harder so I can fight longer,

this life is full of shit,

people here can’t take rest and sit,

everything is going bad in my life more than the shit,

pissed off with the life,

but cant suicide cause I’ve to stand stronger and fight,

have i forgotten something,

may be that god wanted me to learn,

still trying for that and somehow to earn,

people are crazy always point there finger on me,

they found me wicked and fink,

but still will not disclose my secret of being greater than them..!!

f**ked up with this life,  don’t want to be alone,

but no one is jerk like me so I’ve to stand alone..!

when i feel weak, n fall badly,

just feel like to hung up the life as soon as well,

and ring up a bell to the hell,

but no I’ve to make myself stronger for longer,

f**k this shit life, i don’t want anymore,

damn that looks bad so have to stand stronger.,

yep.! Off course i’m not perfect like u,

just F**k off i don’t want to be u anymore,

i like my crazy shit mind,

working hard to find,

meaning of my life which is behind,

not so far not so close,

cant touch cant see,

just with the bad feeling enjoying the ride of my life..!!

"Maa"

Pehla chehra jo dil me basa tha,

Aankho me chhap sa gya tha,

Usi chehre ne roshni di in aankho ko,

Usi ne diya dil me paayar aur jine ki tamanna bhi,

Itna pyar kisi aur se na milega kabhi,

Itna to yakin hai mere dil ko bhi,

Pehla sabd jo dil se nikal kar labj bana tha,

Usi ka chehra aankho me bas gya tha.!!

Wo sabd bas do labj ka hi tha.,

Par matlab uska bayan na kar paunga mai.

‘Maa’ ka chehra aur pyaar bhula na punga mai.

‘Maa’ hi do sabd hai jo bina padhe samjh jaunga mai.,

Ik uff par wo jaan chhidakti hai

Had se bhi jyada pyaar karti hai..!!

Pta nahi kuchh kar paunga mai,

Is mamta ka mol chukka paunga mai,

Anmol hai pyar Maa ka pta hai mujhko,

kuchh farz hai mere,kya nibha paunga mai,

Bhagwan ka roop ya avtar nahi kehta mai,

Quki bhagwan ko dekh pata nahi mai,

Maa ki surat jaisi hi bhagwan ki surat hogi,

Dil me basi ye surat hi bhagwan ki murat hogi..!!

Anant janm lekar bhi karz na chukka paunga mai,

Par is janm me maa ki muskurahat ke liye mar bhi jaunga mai,

Mujhse kabhi dukh na pahuche unhe,

Yahi rehmat barshaye mera khuda mujhpe..!!

''Zindagi''

Har din har raat sochta rha,

Kya naam du tumhe aye mere dosto,

Rasta kanhu to badal jayega,

Daman kanhu to chhut jayega,

Talaash thi kuchh aise naam ki,

Jo hamesha dil ke paas aur sanso me bas jaye,

Mere dosto tum sabhi ho anmol meri sanso ki tarah,

Par talaash thi kuchh aise naam ki jo paas rahe meri sanso ki tarah..!!

Dil kanhu to tut jayega,

Mann bolu to ruth jayega,

Sapna bolu to bhul jayega,

Chhote se dimaag ka istemaal to kiya,

Mandbudhi hu par kuchh kaam to kiya,

Internet par jakar search bhi kiya,

Kitabe bhi padhi par kuchh na mila..!!

Koi naam ne dil ko nahi chhua,

Dil me bas ek sabd tha,

Mann ko bhi bahut pasand tha.!

Rakh diya naam maine ‘zindagi’ tumhara,

Kam se kam maut tak to sath nibhayega.!!

Zindagi par bhi hai kuchh bharosha nahi,

Pal me sab chhin le mujhse aur akela na kar de tumhe kanhi,

Galtiyo ko bhula dena mere, maaf kar riha karna is bandhan se mujhe.!!

Dua karna apne bhagwan se, tadpay na mere ruh ko saitan ki tarah,

Yaad tumhari ruh ke sath le jaunga, ho saka to laut kar wapas jarur aaunga..!! J

Koi Chehra :)

Ek raat haseen uspe aankho me sapne haseen.,

Sapno ke sehar me ek chehra haseen,

Dil me wo basi thi, sapno me saji thi,

Dhadkano me basi thi, sanso me simti thi,

Itne kareeb hokar bhi fasle na the kareeb.!!

Samne aate hi swarg se badhkar koi duniya nazar aati hai,

Aankhe band karu to sapno me utar aati hai,

Aankhe khulne se inkaar kar deti hai,

Haseen chehre ko khone se darti hai,

Uski har baate bacho si fajool par lagti hai sabse haseen,

Khuda ne kar li kabool duwaye meri aise lagta hai ye pal haseen..!!

Darta hai dil kuchh bhi kehne sunne se,

Kanhi kho na du unhe apne sapno se,

Kanhi bhi wo rahe use khud me mehsus karta hu,

Uski badnami na ho isliye dil ko chup rakhta hu,

Kya kar diya hai usne?

Iska jawab dhudhta phirta hu..!!

Itne dil se mila hai ye dil par uske hi aane ka intezaar karta hai,

Tabhi log kahte hai ye saksh akela hai par tanha nahi lagta..!

Unki tareef me kuchh kahu itne mere paas sabd hai nahi,

Unse pyaar hai hume kehna gwara nahi lagta..!!

Dil ki baat hai dil me rahegi, us masoom ko agar samajh aayi to baat aage badhegi,

Par aisa chehra dubara aankho ko na bhayega hai ye lagta.!

Dil dhadhkna ruk sakta hai kuchh pal ke liye,

Sansho ke bina hum reh sakte hai kuchh pal ke liye,

Par kambakhat usnke sapno ke bina reh nahi sakte ek pal ke liye..!!

Log ise ishq ka naam de na de, aur unhe badnaam na kar de,

Isliye hum khus hai unse dur rehkar anjan ki tarah..!! J

If i die tomorrow.!!

If I die tomorrow,

Please don’t cry for me and feel sorrow,

Because I cant see you all in a deep sorrow,

Just for my sake some smile borrow.!

If I die tomorrow,

Don’t keep on thinking about my stupid past,

Don’t let them bring you all down,

I’ve been so stupid, careless, senseless and useless,

And I apolozige for that all heck things I’ve done,

But now forgive and forget that all,

Because now that’s only a part of my stupid past.!

If I die tomorrow,

I’d want you all to know my bloody feelings,

You all are priceless and precious than my breath,

Even though I never wanted to leave your world,

But damn bad these angels are asking me to leave by tomorrow L

May this words help you all through,

When I’m gone.!

If I die tomorrow,

I’d like to tell you all,

That a english dictionary don’t have enough words to explain my wow,

That I’m very thankful to you all,

I got a lovely chance to be a part of my family and you all,

Just wanted to sojourn here but that I cant L

If I die tomorrow,

I’d wish to see a cute smile on your faces,

Knowing that I could not in my life,

Please do this favour just for me,

And remember that I’m not far apart from you all,

I’m right here like air and breath of you all,

And off course I’ll be alive here by taking place in your heart,

So just smile and laugh and say goodbye to me as I was a part of you all..,,.!! J

An Innocent face :)

An innocent face, I saw and I like,

That looks like a new born child,

She looks more beautiful when she smiles,

She is so truthful like a child,

But never use to lie,

I’d be writing everything in her fate,

Only if god would have given me his stupid pen,

Because I know she deserves everything and anything,

She wants in her life.!

Her soul is so sacred like newly born child,

I’d like to make a request and also advise,

Please never be sad and never try to cry,

Because that innocent face every time makes me smile.!

She really looks like a child with happy mind,

But I know some stupid rule of this life,

Everthing gets changed by the time,

But I wish her innocent face and beautiful thoughts,

Remains same as they are already feeded are inside.!

No doubt rain is natural beauty but she is more than that,

I feel illiterate when I try to explain her innocence face,

Because words are never enough to explain her innocence,

Pordon me if I’m wrong somewhere in my words,

Forgive me as words are very few and not enough to explain about you,

My dear friend dhondu J

Everytime you trick me and hide your pain,

Sometime you never explain your sad face,

Never feel alone, live for your own,

If you need me just turn back,

And just remember my reassuring face,

I’ll be right there behind or on your back.!

The days may come when you feel alone,

I’ll be not there to be along,

Because I may be gone to the another world,

But believe me I’ll be right there in your heart,

And trust me will not forget your innocent face J

Just a Crush

Once at the end of my class

I was walking down from stair,

It was just I saw a girl over there,

I felt the cool wind so pleasant,

I had only passed by a few steps,

When I saw her smiling face,

I was arrested by her smiling face,

And went approaching , just to see.!!

And I don’t know what to do,

Everything looked lovely.,

Everything I find new,

Now only one thing I’ve gotta say,

That’s there is no one better than you,

I  felt incompetent as there was nothing I can do,

I got some feeling I had never before

And I turned back and went home..!!!

Lovely Rain

Ye barish ki bunde aur usme chhipa chehra anjana,

Halki si ek jhalak ne kar diya diwana,

Anjana chehra bhi qu mujhe laga pehchana.,

Pehli mulakat thi, nahi tha koi sath purana,

Phir bhi lag rha tha ,sadiyon ka rista purana.!!

Dil me ek tasvir uski utar si gayi hai,

Nazaro me mere wo bas si gayi hai,

Gaur se dekh rha tha uski harkato ko,

Khilkhilati si hansi aur dil machlane wali bachkani harkato ko.!!

Rha na gya mujhse, pahuch gya mai pass uske,

Usne palke uthai phir muskurai aur dil me bana li jagah usne,

Ek dusre ke nazaro me kho se gaye hum,

Na maine kuchh kaha na unhone kuchh bola,

Barish ki boonde kar rhi thi aankho ko band

Par bhi dono ki aankhe nahi hui nam.!!

Achanak barish ke boondo ne apna silsila toda,

Humne dosti ki aur dono ne apna parichay bola.!

Kuchh bate hui par dil ko chubhne si lagi,

Quki unka thikana tha bas ek do din ka yanha,

Phir se dil ne mehsoos kiya tanha begana yanha.!

Gam hum dono ko tha bichhad jane ka,

Kash ho pata hume ek didar us chehre ka,

Ye bearish bhi kya chiz hai, yadon ka hai ghar apna,

Iski boonde le aati hai un yadon ko, samet ke jaise ek sapna.!

In barish ki boondo se ban gya hai rista apna,

Kabhi inke barashne ka silsila toot jata hai,

to kabhi dil se yaadein rooth jaya karti hai..!!

Tell me o khuda.!!

1.)   Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de!!

Mar mitne ko socha tha yari me maine,

Dhoke khaye aur dard utha ab dil me mere!!

Najuk sa dil dard seh pata nahi hai,

Rona chahte  nahi par aansu aankho me bhar aate hai..!!

Mer rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de…!!

2.)   Zindagi me bhi kuchh kar paya nhi,

Bas dard se badh kar kuchh paya nhi..!!

Zindagi suru karne ki kosis ki hai hazar,

Lekin is dard ke aage sab bekar.!!

Main dara nhi kabhi maut ke tufan se,

Bas ruh kanp jati hai unke ik inkar se..!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de…..!!

3.) Bhagti zindagi kabhi pakad aati nhi,

Baat to mere dil ki hai par samajh me aati nhi..!!

Is zindagi se sikwa karna hai yanha bekar,

Iske siwa kuchh aur sujhta nhi itne hue hain lachar..!!

Har subah uthkar bhi lagta hai soye hue hain,

Kuchh keh pate nhi hum sabdo me isliye syahi se sabd firoy hue hain.!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de..!!

4.) kabhi sadgi kisi ko pasand aayi nhi,

Hum hai ki khud ko badal paye nhi..!!

Bahut kuchh kehna chahte the unse, par kuchh kehne ka haq nahi,

Dil hai ki rona chahe, par aansu bahane ka haq nhi..!!

Rone se taqdir yanha badalti nhi,

Aur hum hain ki hans kar bhi hanste nhi..!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de….!!!

5.) Dusro ki pareshani lagti thi kam,

Lekin ab samajh me aata hai unka bhi gam..!!

Dilaya ehsas kuchh logon ne ki kamjor tha main,

Bas isliye aaj kuchh aur hi hoon main..!!

Ik chah bachi hai abhi bhi is dil me,

Hamara ho koi aur hum bhi ho kisi ke..!!

Jo uff tak na nikalne de dil se mere,

Hume aise dost ki talash hamesha rahegi..!!

Kalam se nasha karna to aata nhi hume,

Par sabdo me koi sunta, aisa bhi koi mila nahi hume..!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de..!!!

F* Request oh no.!! fb request :)

A short love story on my facebook page,

Opened my account got a request on my page,

It was a girl profile with her lovely name,

With that request a message on my name!

By reading that message a smile came on my face,

Was wondering how the hell she knows me and remember my face.,

Hitting on her profile and profile was fake,

Soon i realized she was my ex,

Fake profile with a fake name,

But i wasn’t fool to give a chance her again,

Though i accepted her request and started behaving like i wasn’t aware,

She started flirting and playing with me again,

Asking me to meet and hangout,

Started asking my number and pleasing to come back,

She asked, rule me or be my slave,

Now she wants me to back?

Or it’s just another hack?

She realized her mistakes and apologized for that,

But still i agreed for friendship not more than that,

I said you were my fb password but now my pc says its wrong crap,

And I’ve restored myself when i was alone,

Feeling bad for you but i don’t want to patch up again,

Then I signed out and never get back to that page again J

Latest dream"

The latest dream I ever dreamed was so beautiful,

The place in dream was so dark and beautiful.!!

I was sitting beside her on a wall,she looked at me as she did love,

And there I shut her wild-2 eyes with holding her in my arms.!!

And sure in language strange she said that “I LovE thee TruE”,

The latest dream I ever dreamed was so beautiful..!!

The night was so dark and cool winds are so pleasant,

That’s why I want to sojourn there and wanna forever be in my dream.!!

This latest dream I ever dream was so beautiful,

Day in , day out I like to dream because in my dream she is reamain.!!

Everything was going good and sweet,

But suddenly I awoke and found me in my room.!!

The latest dream I ever dreamed was so beautiful..!!!!!!

Missing my friends

I think of my sweet friends,

whom i really miss!!

Oh god.! now i became very alone,

please help me to overcome from this pain!!

No one hear's my cries of pain,

and all my tears go in vain!!

No one comes to share my sorrow,

or promiss me for a better tomorrow!!

Is i'm victim of this cruel world,

that my cries still unheard!!

But its ok i'll bare this pain,

without any complain!!

They knows all my feelings,

right from the start of our friendship!!

They reads my expression,

before i can hide!!

They are very sweet and close to my heart,

thats why i apologize for my missdeed!!

please forgive me if anything wrong i did,

I just want to send a message by this,

i never cry a lot but tears filed my eyes like hell.!!

To part with you people will really be sad,

and friendship is worth more than all on this earth!!

Thats why i'm writting this to my friends,

and i wish them a happy friendship day with a lot of joy!!

                

Dil ki juban

Dil bharta nahi,palak girti nahi,dhadkan chalti nahi jab wo aa jate hai samne,

Dosti hai ya dillagi kuchh samajh me aata nahi jab wo aa jate hai samne,

Uski muskan me kuchh to baat hai aesi jo meri aankho me bas jati hai,

Unke didar ko tarsti hai aankhe par palak uthti nahi jab wo aa jate hai samne,

Nigahe chura nahi sakte unse quki didar ke bina hum reh bhi nahi sakte,

Is ehsas ko pyar ka naam dunga nahi quki badnami unki hum seh nahi sakte,

Usme hai kuchh to kasis par labjo me kuchh keh nahi sakte,

Baat kuchh ankahi si uski aankhe bol jati hai,

Muskurake dil wo mera chura le jati hai,

Use khus dekhna ab adat bana li hai,

Dukh usko na ho ye duwa maine rab se ki hai,

Pighlega wo khuda bhi jab arziya meri uske dar pe pahuchegi,

Hoga asar uski duwaon ka jab dil ki baat dil tak pahuchegi..!!

Aankho me basa ke rakha hai us hasin chehre ko,

Nazuk si aadaye aur thodi bachkani shararto ko,

hai kuchh baat usme jo bha jati hai mere dil ko..!!

 Tareef me kahu to kya kahu labj milte nahi jab wo aa jate hai samne..!!

khuda na kare ki ye silsila na tute mulakato ka,

quki zindagi sawar si jati hai jab wo aa jate hai samne..,

keh kar kuchh bayan hum karte nahi,

aankho ki juban wo samjhte nahi,

par hai bharosha  ki dil ki baat dil ko samjh aayegi,

aur is nacheez ki kismet bhi khul jayegi..!

Dukh kitna bhi ho dil me chehra khil sa jata hai jab wo aa jate hai samne.!!

Angel Friend

I was going back to my home

Waiting for a friend to be along

Can’t believe on my eyes when I saw her dress,

My god..!! She dressed to kill someone i felt right there,

Looking damn cool and beautiful like moon,

Was staring her face like I’ve not seen her before,

Struck a song in my mind by seeing her face,

But because of my bad singing i dint do that

She was looking like a doll n princess of hearts,

She was looking like an angel n more beautiful,

Kajal in her eyes are adjunct in her beautiful face.,

I was admiring but without using my mouth.

Then i realize telling is more important than admiring from eyes.

She is so affable and mesmerizing like an angel

I want to let her know that she is like an angel,

Don’t feel like cartoon and never be alone.,

Because u r precious and priceless gift for me.,

Connecting with your soul

I feel that I’m whole..!!

I must say that I’m blessed special way,

That’s why I’m able to be with you J

I respect you for being original, just for being yourself,

By writing this I’m just making a memory of our friendship,

Who knows I could not stay for another day..!! :)

Journey with a friend :)

Once at the end of my day,

Met with a friend on my way,

We were sitting at the station waiting for the train,

As soon as we saw the train,

Got in without noticing the place name.

We were busy in our chit-chat,

And by chatting we enjoyed a lot.

After a journey of half n hour

I just felt like we are on wrong path,

Soon after that we saw a station strange,

She started smiling by seeing my face.!

 I just got arrested by her smiling face,

And we got down there without being late.

We were enjoying like birds on tree,

Again we wait there for the train,

I really don’t care that i reached at wrong place

Because that was a good time with her i had..!!

Believe me i was not pretending to go home

Beautiful to me, i went through the time..

Then we catch the train again for our place,

Reaching at our place we felt so good,

But at the end of the journey she got some pain

Felt so bad to me but i was feeling incompetence to do anything.

She looks much better with a smile

She seems to be so sad that night,

I would be very glad if only i could make her smile.

She tried to sit calm and look cool,

But i know her emotions and i know she is fool.

No words could i use to help me explain,

What it does to me to see her in the pain.

 then i reached to my place,

And i turned back went to my home..!!