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You don't know 'ME'




You see me smiling, you see me playing,
You see me joking, you see me laughing,
But everything you see is not me,
Behind my joke, laugh and smile,
A person is there dying inside.
You think you know me well,
But sorry you don’t know that i’m playing well,
Some of you pretend to know me,
And some of you don’t care to,
You don’t know the ‘me’ below my smiley mask,
Take away your geusstimation,
Leave me alone and don’t try,
You don’t know the deepest me,
Because you see what i want you to see..!!
I’m more complicated than you think,
So don’t waste your time and just chill,
I don’t know why god is so high,
But still he is helping me to hide the deepest me and smile.,
I’m such a useless on earth, but still trying to give something to others,
Honesty, smile, caring and something more,
Sorry i’m doing what i can, helping the way i can,
Sorry if i’m not up to the mark in your view.,
I can scream the truth in your eyes,
It does not matter, if you don’t know me,
You don’t know who i’m?
Regretting for my regrets,
God forgive me for my sins,
And please help me to win,
Hearts and my life so that i can survive..!!
 

Is this loneliness?

The days in my life i had was better than now,
Everyday missing my friends, who used to care and love till now,
I don’t have many friends like everyone around me,
Not a big circle in social life or in sofalize,
Not a tweetheart but have a heart for my friends,
Not perfect but good enough for loved ones in my life,
My heart is a hotspot for my friends,
Day in day out online services for them,
It’s not only guesstimate of mine,
I love flame war with my friends sometime,
But not being apart for the silly things happened in that war time!
I sit and wonder for some time,
Why i’m alone now after giving this much space to them in my life!!
Tired of being sorry and daily nonversation of my life,
How could i be so lost and lonely?
In a place i know so well?
I can’t buy this on my own,
Is depression so dark?
I need to speak up loud before it takes me away?
better to die than being a cage animal of life,
living is not worthwhile here like this,
darkness closing all around,
still i’m not making a  single sound,
just hoping and begging for an angel friend in my life,
just to comfort me in my bad times
so i struggle on just holding a smile on my face.!!!! :) :(
 

Wish i was a child again :(



I wish i was a child again,
Nothing to think, nothing to worry,
Nothing in mind to think and cry,
A cute and true smile i can carry,
And wish i could make things different,
Being apart from close one hurts a lot,
Sometime boredom kills and i feel all alone,
Would like to die than chasing the life for long..!!
Feeling lonely and no one near to comfort,
I feel the toughest challenge of this life,
It’s hard to walk when i miss a friend behind,
It’s hard to talk when no one understands,
It’s hard to smile when inside i’m crying,
I wish i was a child again,
Without any dreams and goals to achieve,
Nothing to lose and suffering like now,
I don’t want to cry the way i feel inside,
But this is the feeling that i can’t hide inside..!!
Sometime i scream, yell and cry,
So that i can get rid of my bad feeling & cries,
But getting failed every time is the worst feeling i had and have,
Still i struggle on, holding a smile on my face,
It’s endless feeling i had & have,
and my words always get rot and fall away,,
I wish i was a child again L

 

"My Sweetie Sony"



Let me intro to you with my cutie,
Enticing look and so beauty,
Helps me in every situation,
Without any hesitation.,
Always near to my heart,
I will be alone without her touch,
Helps me to connect all over the world,
And holds my small world in her heart,
Ready to help me day in day out,
Want to know the name??
Don’t laugh on her,
May be u think name is funny,
But i’m crazy about her name,
Not much unique, not so simple also,
Branded damn cool name.,
I’m afraid if you also fall for her,
It’s Sony Ericsson W8 (hehehe lolzz)
Stop laughing now, it’s my fav,
It’s more than anything to me,
Always helps me to get in to touch,
With my close friends and family
That’s why i treat my mob as my gf (lolz..!)
Don’t you believe, will tell why?
Girl friends are like my mobile,
Cause they need money and
Loves you till you are charged with money,
And my sweetie Sony also needs money,
She doesn’t love me but helps to get love,
Thru connecting line to my family and friends..!!
That’s why i’m in love with my mobile phone Sony ;)