F*****g alone!!!

Walking alone, feeling alone,

Still feels best deep in my soul,

No one to hurt, no one to bother,

Look into my eyes; you may see the pain,

I wake up from my dream,

They hurt sometimes deep inside,

I don’t want to yell or scream for the way I feel inside,

I’m going kinda insane, now pain is my brain,

Feeling to hold a gun in my hand,

And point it to my fcuking head,

Gun should be loaded to blow my head,

Pull the trigger when feeling worst again.!!

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Theist way to lead my life.!!

Getting bored of thinking big,

Free will always leads me to dig,

Having a goal to hit before life hits you,

Being crazy and going mad is not worth too,

Having patience for long time isn’t work too,

Trying hard and smart way to reach you (Goal),

Waiting for right time to nailed it soon,

Because I’m not the zombie,

(At-least I think so)

I have so many white hopes,

And want to become time pleaser soul,

Teleology thinking is sticking me to with work,

I feel to be stiff necked (Not kidding),

Time, Money and goal,

These three are playing with me badly,

(Yeah! Here you can Rolf and lol),

Time is passing fast,

Money, I’m running sort of,

I’ll kick myself to hit the goal,

Being theist, I think will roll surely till my goal.!!

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A mind full of questions :(

Is life full of darkness or my eyes can’t see the right way,

Through these eyes I can only see the rough dark way,

Full of problems, full of mistakes,

Yet I’m trying to live and believing it’s me,

All I can do is arrange these words on this page,

Its feeling of heart, it will rot away only after age,

Standing and trying to see the sparkle in the dark,

Sparkle, which can lead me up to the mark,

Is my expectations are more than I should get?

Why these feelings are getting over at me?

There are lots of questions circulating in mind,

God must be on the way to answer this hopeless crap,

Waiting with patience is killing, can’t take a nap,

Being optimist, still I have a hopeless hope,

Days will pass and time must heal the pain,

I’ll lead the way; have faith in me as well in god.

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"Dub na jana"

Is chhote se safar me chalna sambhal ke,

Rasta kathin hai phr bhi sabar kar le,

Agar hoti khata hai to dar na saja se,

Marna yanha pe sabko pada hai phir kyun dagmagana,

Ugta suraj bhi dubta jarur hai phir kyun ghabrana,

Dub na jana, dub na jana, khud ko bachana..!!

Lad le tu din se phir honi raat haseen hai,

Umeedo ka chiraag yun na bujhana,

Duniya ke bheed me chalna jarur hai,

Reh ke akele tu samay na gawana,

Kitni bhi ho sikayte, koi sunne ko na pass ho,

Na  ro jana tum na ro jana,

Dub na jana, dub na jana, khud ko bachana..!!

Gir ke uthega tu, manjilo ko chhuega tu,

Din me badlegi ye raate,,

Dhalta suraj majboor hai par umeed hi ek dor hai,

Na chhod dena, na tod dena,

In suni suni raato me hi milega kinara,

Na bhul jana, na palke bhigana,

Dub na jana, dub na jana, khud ko bachana..!!

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Standing alonE

Life is so silly and like dirty picture,

but i’m also a desi boy not a simple human with fink structure,

Will fall and stand again for some new adventure,

I know i’m not perfect and i do mistakes with some unwanted lecture,

But at the same time i do apologize,

And my mum says that’s good sign,

They also do the mistakes and never apologize for that,

I too have feelings; i’m not a crap rat,

I don’t want your fake love and words,

But at least behave like a human being don’t curse,

Kill me once at all; don’t poke me again and again,

I can’t die each and every moment,

I beg for friendship and some relation,

So they think i’m nothing and kick me like assf**k,

May be i’m bad in social networking,

But still a shit heart beats for you people.

I don’t know why i’m begging,

When they don’t want to get in,

Off course scared to be alone,

But will make myself stronger and will stand again alone..!

Learned a lot in this small journey of my shit life,

Many people played and life as well

Now I’m stronger and standing harder,

Cause i’ve only one shot, one opportunity,

Have to play better and proof my existence,

Its getting hard but its my life,

Will live like i want and thanks to my family,

Standing behind like god,

Some people wants me to leave,

But its my life i’ll live not leave,

If u have problem kill yourself or leave.,

God is asking me to hold his hand,

Got a good stand now i’m not alone.,

When i can see the god,

Then why should i see the temple,

And beg for your company..!!

Believe me now i’m stronger and happy with my life,

Because i’ve learned to accept things like they are in life,

Now i’m not alone so will struggle and survive J

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Life S***'s

Whatever happens, i make myself stronger,

to stand harder so I can fight longer,

this life is full of shit,

people here can’t take rest and sit,

everything is going bad in my life more than the shit,

pissed off with the life,

but cant suicide cause I’ve to stand stronger and fight,

have i forgotten something,

may be that god wanted me to learn,

still trying for that and somehow to earn,

people are crazy always point there finger on me,

they found me wicked and fink,

but still will not disclose my secret of being greater than them..!!

f**ked up with this life,  don’t want to be alone,

but no one is jerk like me so I’ve to stand alone..!

when i feel weak, n fall badly,

just feel like to hung up the life as soon as well,

and ring up a bell to the hell,

but no I’ve to make myself stronger for longer,

f**k this shit life, i don’t want anymore,

damn that looks bad so have to stand stronger.,

yep.! Off course i’m not perfect like u,

just F**k off i don’t want to be u anymore,

i like my crazy shit mind,

working hard to find,

meaning of my life which is behind,

not so far not so close,

cant touch cant see,

just with the bad feeling enjoying the ride of my life..!!

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