Unwanted Change"

My favourite mirror on the wall,

Dint reflect my face when i want,

My closest soul got little change,

Calling change don’t sense me wrong,

But a change can make big gap in the map,

Between the shoes i have,

Never expected to see the changes she got,

I tried to be in her shoes and understand,

Dint get any clue, then also i’m baring the changes i shouldn't,

Hope everything will be fine, like she used to be before,

It kills me when i see the mirror is changed,

And i’m staring at the wall expecting for the same,

Laconately will say i’m looking for my mirror again,

Change is good sometimes, but not in the relation we used to have,

I know, problems never leave us alone,

They always roll in head like a lone,

Tension is the natural thing people get often,

Is making change in you, the right solution of the problem?

Changes in a pair of shoes kick us to feel uncomfortable,

Imperfection comes there way if the time is not in favour,

What should i do to get you back?

Where should i go to seek the peace you want?

Whom should i ask the path to reach you back?

When should i try to match the time?

Lots of questions rolling in my head,

And no one is near to help,

Only god, who has been helping me,

Through the whole life i have,,

So god is the ultimate answer of my question.,

Hope everything will sort out soon with perfection!!!

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Happy birthday:)

This is just not simple words to read,

Or a poem to read and filed,

It’s my feeling that i just can’t hide,

You believe me or not,

Things were pretty worst in my life,

And then I asked to god for an angel friend in my life,

Wasn’t sure that will get one so soon,

Of course anyone can not promise me for the moon,

But meeting you on facebook like a stranger,

Then later after some months we met again as stranger,(but No more :D)

And after seeing you twice and thrice in this rushing life,

I can feel the comfort of having that angel friend in my life,

For whom i use to make many requests to my god..!

My prayers were answered when god laid you in my life J

I got shocked by seeing many things common in us,

From the good things to our pain and family matters,

You are the person i trust the most,

You are the person i run to when i feel lost,

Now i want to thank you for being in my life,

Being my best friend and helping me through this life,

And i realised this perfect friend i found is like a mirror,

You are so perfect not like me an error J

And you know all this is so true,

Without you i would be indeed so blue.

But remember if you stumble, count me there,

Gratitude; not even in nightmare..!!

20 years ago from today, you placed in your mother’s arm,

I’m blessed with an angel friend on that day itself.,

And now your special day has come by again,

So i wish for lots of birthday fun, to last until the day is done J

Hoping that all your wishes comes true,

Be happy and keep smiling always like you do.!! J

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Is this loneliness?

The days in my life i had was better than now,

Everyday missing my friends, who used to care and love till now,

I don’t have many friends like everyone around me,

Not a big circle in social life or in sofalize,

Not a tweetheart but have a heart for my friends,

Not perfect but good enough for loved ones in my life,

My heart is a hotspot for my friends,

Day in day out online services for them,

It’s not only guesstimate of mine,

I love flame war with my friends sometime,

But not being apart for the silly things happened in that war time!

I sit and wonder for some time,

Why i’m alone now after giving this much space to them in my life!!

Tired of being sorry and daily nonversation of my life,

How could i be so lost and lonely?

In a place i know so well?

I can’t buy this on my own,

Is depression so dark?

I need to speak up loud before it takes me away?

better to die than being a cage animal of life,

living is not worthwhile here like this,

darkness closing all around,

still i’m not making a  single sound,

just hoping and begging for an angel friend in my life,

just to comfort me in my bad times

so i struggle on just holding a smile on my face.!!!! :) :(

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''Zindagi''

Har din har raat sochta rha,

Kya naam du tumhe aye mere dosto,

Rasta kanhu to badal jayega,

Daman kanhu to chhut jayega,

Talaash thi kuchh aise naam ki,

Jo hamesha dil ke paas aur sanso me bas jaye,

Mere dosto tum sabhi ho anmol meri sanso ki tarah,

Par talaash thi kuchh aise naam ki jo paas rahe meri sanso ki tarah..!!

Dil kanhu to tut jayega,

Mann bolu to ruth jayega,

Sapna bolu to bhul jayega,

Chhote se dimaag ka istemaal to kiya,

Mandbudhi hu par kuchh kaam to kiya,

Internet par jakar search bhi kiya,

Kitabe bhi padhi par kuchh na mila..!!

Koi naam ne dil ko nahi chhua,

Dil me bas ek sabd tha,

Mann ko bhi bahut pasand tha.!

Rakh diya naam maine ‘zindagi’ tumhara,

Kam se kam maut tak to sath nibhayega.!!

Zindagi par bhi hai kuchh bharosha nahi,

Pal me sab chhin le mujhse aur akela na kar de tumhe kanhi,

Galtiyo ko bhula dena mere, maaf kar riha karna is bandhan se mujhe.!!

Dua karna apne bhagwan se, tadpay na mere ruh ko saitan ki tarah,

Yaad tumhari ruh ke sath le jaunga, ho saka to laut kar wapas jarur aaunga..!! J

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If i die tomorrow.!!

If I die tomorrow,

Please don’t cry for me and feel sorrow,

Because I cant see you all in a deep sorrow,

Just for my sake some smile borrow.!

If I die tomorrow,

Don’t keep on thinking about my stupid past,

Don’t let them bring you all down,

I’ve been so stupid, careless, senseless and useless,

And I apolozige for that all heck things I’ve done,

But now forgive and forget that all,

Because now that’s only a part of my stupid past.!

If I die tomorrow,

I’d want you all to know my bloody feelings,

You all are priceless and precious than my breath,

Even though I never wanted to leave your world,

But damn bad these angels are asking me to leave by tomorrow L

May this words help you all through,

When I’m gone.!

If I die tomorrow,

I’d like to tell you all,

That a english dictionary don’t have enough words to explain my wow,

That I’m very thankful to you all,

I got a lovely chance to be a part of my family and you all,

Just wanted to sojourn here but that I cant L

If I die tomorrow,

I’d wish to see a cute smile on your faces,

Knowing that I could not in my life,

Please do this favour just for me,

And remember that I’m not far apart from you all,

I’m right here like air and breath of you all,

And off course I’ll be alive here by taking place in your heart,

So just smile and laugh and say goodbye to me as I was a part of you all..,,.!! J

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An Innocent face :)

An innocent face, I saw and I like,

That looks like a new born child,

She looks more beautiful when she smiles,

She is so truthful like a child,

But never use to lie,

I’d be writing everything in her fate,

Only if god would have given me his stupid pen,

Because I know she deserves everything and anything,

She wants in her life.!

Her soul is so sacred like newly born child,

I’d like to make a request and also advise,

Please never be sad and never try to cry,

Because that innocent face every time makes me smile.!

She really looks like a child with happy mind,

But I know some stupid rule of this life,

Everthing gets changed by the time,

But I wish her innocent face and beautiful thoughts,

Remains same as they are already feeded are inside.!

No doubt rain is natural beauty but she is more than that,

I feel illiterate when I try to explain her innocence face,

Because words are never enough to explain her innocence,

Pordon me if I’m wrong somewhere in my words,

Forgive me as words are very few and not enough to explain about you,

My dear friend dhondu J

Everytime you trick me and hide your pain,

Sometime you never explain your sad face,

Never feel alone, live for your own,

If you need me just turn back,

And just remember my reassuring face,

I’ll be right there behind or on your back.!

The days may come when you feel alone,

I’ll be not there to be along,

Because I may be gone to the another world,

But believe me I’ll be right there in your heart,

And trust me will not forget your innocent face J

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Just a Crush

Once at the end of my class

I was walking down from stair,

It was just I saw a girl over there,

I felt the cool wind so pleasant,

I had only passed by a few steps,

When I saw her smiling face,

I was arrested by her smiling face,

And went approaching , just to see.!!

And I don’t know what to do,

Everything looked lovely.,

Everything I find new,

Now only one thing I’ve gotta say,

That’s there is no one better than you,

I  felt incompetent as there was nothing I can do,

I got some feeling I had never before

And I turned back and went home..!!!

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Tell me o khuda.!!

1.)   Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de!!

Mar mitne ko socha tha yari me maine,

Dhoke khaye aur dard utha ab dil me mere!!

Najuk sa dil dard seh pata nahi hai,

Rona chahte  nahi par aansu aankho me bhar aate hai..!!

Mer rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de…!!

2.)   Zindagi me bhi kuchh kar paya nhi,

Bas dard se badh kar kuchh paya nhi..!!

Zindagi suru karne ki kosis ki hai hazar,

Lekin is dard ke aage sab bekar.!!

Main dara nhi kabhi maut ke tufan se,

Bas ruh kanp jati hai unke ik inkar se..!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de…..!!

3.) Bhagti zindagi kabhi pakad aati nhi,

Baat to mere dil ki hai par samajh me aati nhi..!!

Is zindagi se sikwa karna hai yanha bekar,

Iske siwa kuchh aur sujhta nhi itne hue hain lachar..!!

Har subah uthkar bhi lagta hai soye hue hain,

Kuchh keh pate nhi hum sabdo me isliye syahi se sabd firoy hue hain.!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de..!!

4.) kabhi sadgi kisi ko pasand aayi nhi,

Hum hai ki khud ko badal paye nhi..!!

Bahut kuchh kehna chahte the unse, par kuchh kehne ka haq nahi,

Dil hai ki rona chahe, par aansu bahane ka haq nhi..!!

Rone se taqdir yanha badalti nhi,

Aur hum hain ki hans kar bhi hanste nhi..!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de….!!!

5.) Dusro ki pareshani lagti thi kam,

Lekin ab samajh me aata hai unka bhi gam..!!

Dilaya ehsas kuchh logon ne ki kamjor tha main,

Bas isliye aaj kuchh aur hi hoon main..!!

Ik chah bachi hai abhi bhi is dil me,

Hamara ho koi aur hum bhi ho kisi ke..!!

Jo uff tak na nikalne de dil se mere,

Hume aise dost ki talash hamesha rahegi..!!

Kalam se nasha karna to aata nhi hume,

Par sabdo me koi sunta, aisa bhi koi mila nahi hume..!!

Mere rabba mujhe itna samjha de,

Mai rahun yanha ya mar jau itna bata de..!!!

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F* Request oh no.!! fb request :)

A short love story on my facebook page,

Opened my account got a request on my page,

It was a girl profile with her lovely name,

With that request a message on my name!

By reading that message a smile came on my face,

Was wondering how the hell she knows me and remember my face.,

Hitting on her profile and profile was fake,

Soon i realized she was my ex,

Fake profile with a fake name,

But i wasn’t fool to give a chance her again,

Though i accepted her request and started behaving like i wasn’t aware,

She started flirting and playing with me again,

Asking me to meet and hangout,

Started asking my number and pleasing to come back,

She asked, rule me or be my slave,

Now she wants me to back?

Or it’s just another hack?

She realized her mistakes and apologized for that,

But still i agreed for friendship not more than that,

I said you were my fb password but now my pc says its wrong crap,

And I’ve restored myself when i was alone,

Feeling bad for you but i don’t want to patch up again,

Then I signed out and never get back to that page again J

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Missing my friends

I think of my sweet friends,

whom i really miss!!

Oh god.! now i became very alone,

please help me to overcome from this pain!!

No one hear's my cries of pain,

and all my tears go in vain!!

No one comes to share my sorrow,

or promiss me for a better tomorrow!!

Is i'm victim of this cruel world,

that my cries still unheard!!

But its ok i'll bare this pain,

without any complain!!

They knows all my feelings,

right from the start of our friendship!!

They reads my expression,

before i can hide!!

They are very sweet and close to my heart,

thats why i apologize for my missdeed!!

please forgive me if anything wrong i did,

I just want to send a message by this,

i never cry a lot but tears filed my eyes like hell.!!

To part with you people will really be sad,

and friendship is worth more than all on this earth!!

Thats why i'm writting this to my friends,

and i wish them a happy friendship day with a lot of joy!!

                

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Angel Friend

I was going back to my home

Waiting for a friend to be along

Can’t believe on my eyes when I saw her dress,

My god..!! She dressed to kill someone i felt right there,

Looking damn cool and beautiful like moon,

Was staring her face like I’ve not seen her before,

Struck a song in my mind by seeing her face,

But because of my bad singing i dint do that

She was looking like a doll n princess of hearts,

She was looking like an angel n more beautiful,

Kajal in her eyes are adjunct in her beautiful face.,

I was admiring but without using my mouth.

Then i realize telling is more important than admiring from eyes.

She is so affable and mesmerizing like an angel

I want to let her know that she is like an angel,

Don’t feel like cartoon and never be alone.,

Because u r precious and priceless gift for me.,

Connecting with your soul

I feel that I’m whole..!!

I must say that I’m blessed special way,

That’s why I’m able to be with you J

I respect you for being original, just for being yourself,

By writing this I’m just making a memory of our friendship,

Who knows I could not stay for another day..!! :)

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